Nickelback-Far Away

This is my this-week-song played all over again during this week.
Sometimes listening to get-out-of-your-comfort-zone music is kind of enjoyable thing to do
Nickelback does sound rock music yet it has wonderful lyrics and tones :))

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

Fighting Spirit

Fighting Spirit
Maybe that was a lesson that I got after seeing Thomas Cup 2010 Final between Indonesia and China.
Our team did fight, yet the opponent did fight a lot more. Maybe it's true we lack of stamina. The main thing is we lack of fighting spirit.Our technique was not that bad compare to them, or maybe we're sometimes better. 


I do love the way Hendra Setiawan and Markis Kido as well as Simon Santosa played. They fought till the end--stumbled and fell--up and down. They are our heroes though still they can't bring back the cup home.


I heart you Hendra <3

So is there anything to do with me? YES, ABSOLUTELY!
I've lost my fighting spirit this half year to go. I have no clue at all.
It seems that i just pass each day like the way it is...no fight, no survive, NOTHING.


I have to learn a lot from them.

After a while

It's been a while since the last time I posted a writing up here.
This half year to go is kind of awful and spiritless for me.
I've done nothing-for everything and I've been absent like almost every day.
I've lost myself-I guess--I cant figure it out.
I just know, It's just significantly different than last year.
Like the only thing I can do is messing up--screwing up things and my soul.
I'm questioning a lot, yet doing nothing.
I'm wondering a lot, yet staying the same.
I've lost, I've stranded all alone all over again.




Life's life, love's love, death's death