Another Post

I didn't really write lately. I just posted my this-week song lyrics.
This time is from Lady Antebellum's Need You Now.


The first line was really me at the moment I posted this.



Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time  

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

woah woaaah.

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without  

I just need you now

I just need you now (wait)

Ooo, baby, I need you now

Nickelback-Far Away

This is my this-week-song played all over again during this week.
Sometimes listening to get-out-of-your-comfort-zone music is kind of enjoyable thing to do
Nickelback does sound rock music yet it has wonderful lyrics and tones :))

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

Fighting Spirit

Fighting Spirit
Maybe that was a lesson that I got after seeing Thomas Cup 2010 Final between Indonesia and China.
Our team did fight, yet the opponent did fight a lot more. Maybe it's true we lack of stamina. The main thing is we lack of fighting spirit.Our technique was not that bad compare to them, or maybe we're sometimes better. 


I do love the way Hendra Setiawan and Markis Kido as well as Simon Santosa played. They fought till the end--stumbled and fell--up and down. They are our heroes though still they can't bring back the cup home.


I heart you Hendra <3

So is there anything to do with me? YES, ABSOLUTELY!
I've lost my fighting spirit this half year to go. I have no clue at all.
It seems that i just pass each day like the way it is...no fight, no survive, NOTHING.


I have to learn a lot from them.

After a while

It's been a while since the last time I posted a writing up here.
This half year to go is kind of awful and spiritless for me.
I've done nothing-for everything and I've been absent like almost every day.
I've lost myself-I guess--I cant figure it out.
I just know, It's just significantly different than last year.
Like the only thing I can do is messing up--screwing up things and my soul.
I'm questioning a lot, yet doing nothing.
I'm wondering a lot, yet staying the same.
I've lost, I've stranded all alone all over again.




Life's life, love's love, death's death

Reminds me of you all over again

Time may set us apart and never permit us to see each other, but in my heart, you'll never lose your place & never be replaced #TLS

:)

with an off on off connection; a slice out of 9 u have::u made my day :)

A Creed To Live By author Nancye Sims

It's another wonderful note about life I've got from Tina Harada--my FB friend. Thanks loads for sharing this good one, Tina. Thank you.
Enjoy reading :)


A Creed To Live By by Nancye Sims

Don't undermine your worth
by comparing yourself with others.
It is because we are different
that each of us is special.

Don't set your goals by what
other people deem important.
Only you know what is best for you.

Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart.
Cling to them as you would your life,
for without them life is meaningless.

Don't let your life slip through your fingers
by living in the past or for the future,
By living your life one day at a time.

Don't give up when you still have something to give
nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.

Don't be afraid to admit that you are less then perfect.
It is a fragile thread that binds each of us to each other.

Don't be afraid to encounter risks.
It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave.

Don't shut love out of your life by saying it impossible to find.
The quickest way to receive love is to give love;
The fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly;
And the best way to keep love is to give it wings.

Don't dismiss your dreams.
To be without dreams is to be without hope;
to be without hope is to be without purpose.

Don't run through life so fast
that you forget not only where you have been
but also where you are going.
Life is not a race,
but a journey to be savored each step of the way.




Don't dismiss your dreams.
To be without dreams is to be without hope;
to be without hope is to be without purpose.


Lines that I have to keep in mind
to keep me alive and try harder and more seriously than before
to make my dream real come true :)

The Losing Soul

Sepertinya sudah terlalu lama saya membolos dan ini tidak baik

Me

It's the most tiring moment when anger was taking control over my logic
Everything seemed so messy
I thought of many bad thoughts
I drove myself to misbehave
A big chance of hurting others
And even more hurt my soul


I let others down
I let myself to turn worse
I let things turn upside down


I'm sorry

You Still Have Hope (by author unknown)

It's a wonderful note that I got from an FB friend, Tina Harada. It's wonderful knowing that I still have hope of everything in this life---the wasted life I have as I thought I do.
Thanks Lord for sending a friend like her who always shares me good things about life. 


Thank you loads, Tina <3


If you can look at the sunset and smile, then you still have hope.

If you can find beauty in the colors of a small flower, then you still have hope.

If you can find pleasure in the movement of a butterfly, then you still have hope.

If the smile of a child can still warm your heart, then you still have hope.

If you can see the good in other people, then you still have hope.

If the rain breaking on a roof top can still lull you to sleep, then you still have hope.

If the sight of a rainbow still makes you stop and stare in wonder, then you still have hope.

If the soft fur of a favored pet still feels pleasant under your fingertips, then you still have hope.

If you meet new people with a trace of excitement and optimism, then you still have hope.

If you give people the benefit of a doubt, then you still have hope.

If you still offer your hand in friendship to others that have touched your life, then you still have hope.

If receiving an unexpected card or letter still brings a pleasant surprise, then you still have hope.

If the suffering of others still fills you with pain and frustration, then you still have hope.

If you refuse to let a friendship die, or accept that it must end, then you still have hope.

If you look forward to a time or place of quiet and reflection, then you still have hope.

If you still buy the ornaments, put up the Christmas tree or cook the supper, then you still have hope.

If you can look to the past and smile, then you still have hope.

If, when faced with the bad, when told everything is futile, you can still look up and end the conversation with the phrase..."yeah...BUT.," then you still have hope.

Hope is such a marvelous thing. It bends, it twists, it sometimes hides, but rarely does it break. It sustains us when nothing else can. It gives us reason to continue and courage to move ahead, when we tell ourselves we'd rather give in.

Hope puts a smile on our face
when the heart cannot manage.

Hope puts our feet on the path when our eyes cannot see it.

Hope moves us to act
when our souls are confused of the direction.

Hope is a wonderful thing, something to be cherished and nurtured, and something that will refresh us in return.

And it can be found in each of us, and it can bring light into the darkest of places.

Never lose hope !

A Nite Random Thought

It's exactly a nite random thought...

Looking at a page of my favourite boyband, I got myself into tears!

It's weird really weird

I didn't have any clue why this happened to me

I looked at a photograph of a young lady met my fave Nicky

Ha! It's jealousy that coming up to me then like in a sudden I did want to meet Nicky like that lady!

Will I?

It's been like 11 years! My sis did see them on concert...

I do really want to meet Nicky <3

Random Thoughts (again)

Random thoughts of today

#1 How many tomorrows are left for me?

#2 Will I be home for the next two years with good job and better living?

#3 When will I have my first novel published?--considering the fact I don't write a single letter yet! BAH

#4 Will I meet Ro, Nico, and Ash? Or one of them? When?

#5 When will I go to the land of Irish?

#6 What will happen to me when my good friends aren't around? No more...

#7 Will I meet my every-day-friend?

#8 Will I have my scholarship abroad?

#9 Why do I have so many will in these random thoughts?

What's the difference between now and then?

Today waking up after a very long enough nap, I remembered this line from Panabaker's Fame

"What's the difference between now and then?"-- a line that she monologued for the PA audition--broken marriage.

Marriage...

What the hell is that shitty thing?

I don't think I believe in that

Love, commitment and cares

So where all those things gone when a divorce becomes a choice to end the marriage?

Whose fault is it?

Me? You? The kids? God?

Tell me!

"What's the difference between now and then?"

One said now is when you still have control over everything, whereas then, no more

Another one said it's a matter of time

Me thinks that I'm still puzzled

I don't believe in marriage-- and it's getting worse when this thing came up to my life

I don't think two loving people need to get married when at last they'll end up to fight to each other; to hurt each other more than they ever imagine

I have no clue

It's the sweetest thing to see loving people--even strangers ones

It's the happiest moment

Maybe I ain't mature yet to understand this whole thing

Maybe I ain't ready yet to get hurt or in pain--no more

Maybe I need to fall in love first to get into it

And there's a lot of maybes...

lonesome March

I used to love March loads

Many of my good friends are celebrating their birthdays on this month

I always love the Pisces and Aries ones on a lovely March

Now

I didn't think I love it as I used to be

It was a lonesome one

I had no clue why

I felt all alone stranded in a strange place

No fellows no relatives no one

I'm all alone in this crowd

Really

April has come by now

I'll make it different

i love them all

good friday's poem

aku tak terbangunkan sampai matahari berada di ubun- ubunku

lelah--tak juga

sakit--syukurlah hanya bersin berkepanjangan yang tak henti

malas--mungkin yang paling tepat

angin belum juga bertiup ke arahku, mengajakku mengobrol hal- hal tentang hidup

kutanya pada hujan, ia tak tahu

kutanya pada panasnya bumi, ia pun tak punya jawaban

kutanya pada pertiwi, ia ternyata merindukan hembusan si angin

kutanya pada semesta, mereka diam menatap

aku sendiri, benar- benar sendiri

atau aku hanya merasa sendiri?

aku bertanya kesana kemari, tak ada jawab untuk hal bodoh yang aku tanyakan

aku melihat banyak jalan di depan

yang mana yang akan kupilih?

atau sebenarnya aku sudah memilih?

aku memilih jalan ini

jalan yang tak kukenal

jalan yang asing

jalan yang sepi

jalan yang bernama

jalan yang tak jelas

jalan yang tak bisa membuatku bertemu si angin

aku pikir aku tersesat

aku pikir aku salah jalan

aku pikir aku bisa berputar balik arah

aku pikir pikiranku benar

ternyata aku tak berpikir bahwa aku berlari

berlari yang tak tentu arah

berlari bersama pelarian- pelarianku

berlari bersama kenangan- kenanganku

berlari bersama mimpi-mimpiku

tapi aku meninggalkan jiwaku

yeah, I'm too an ordinary one

Asher Book's Ordinary People

(http://www.asherbook.net/

Girl I’m in love with you
This ain’t the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday

I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we’ll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow

[Chorus]

We’re just ordinary people
We don’t know which way to go
’cause we’re ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we’ll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we’ll take it slow

[Verse 2]

This ain’t a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya’ll
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it’s heaven sent
Then we head back to hell again
We kiss and we make up on the way

I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away
As our love advances
We take second chances
Though it’s not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay

[Chorus]

We’re just ordinary people
We don’t know which way to go
’cause we’re ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we’ll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we’ll take it slow

[Verse 3]

Take it slow
Maybe we’ll live and learn
Maybe we’ll crash and burn
Maybe you’ll stay, maybe you’ll leave,
Maybe you’ll return
Maybe another fight,
Maybe we won’t survive
But maybe we’ll grow
We never know baby youuuu and I

[Chorus]

We’re just ordinary people
We don’t know which way to go(hey)
’cause we’re ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Heyyy)
We’re just ordinary people
We don’t know which way to go
’cause we’re ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we’ll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we’ll take it slow
Take it sloww
Take it slow
This time we’ll take it slow
Take

I heard this song last nite

WOW it's so me--it's directly became my lullaby and my today buzz list

It's a wonderful song I think from my fave singer

Ordinary People...

What came to my mind was that I am a part of these peeps--the ordinary person--even way too ordinary

This song is completely rite about (my) life

I don't know which way to go

Maybe I'll learn I'll live

My mood was like heaven- hell thing

lots of ups and downs

lots of ego

not ready to get hurt

not ready to be brave

not ready yet then I really think i have to take it slowly---or real slow

to show myself the rite path; to show me that fight is not like hell and harmony isn't like heaven all the time

life brings you to the place that you never imagine before --- to a fact that you aren't willing to reveal--- to many surprises

we just need to take it slow

to learn to live

cause we are just ORDINARY PEOPLE

<3>

Just random thoughts

When things seemed go wrong and not like what i hoped, random thought came and filled my thoughts like a bomb which ready to boom like any time it wants.

random thought 1 ---> we're all different! looking at a happy photo of a friend- yeah we're living in the same planet, but different world, different paths, different hopes, different expectation and achievement--the only same thing is that we're all His creature. it's so happy to see a happy smile from a good friend or even from strangers who we never met before. it's so happy to see happiness and hopes shine on someone's face---But it would be extremely happy if all those things were mine! EGO. i start to compare. i start to question, yet start to thank too; not to regret anything. I LET IT GO

random thought 2 ---> it would be great to be an artist--i mean the real artist who's doing arts works like singing, dancing and acting at the same time. WHOA what a life :) --an artist who's producing own musics, dancings, and acts, FABULOUS. ---too hard for i cant even play any musical instruments; cant read musical notes; cant act and the worst is that i cant sing! think i'm the real "artist" ROFL

random thought 3 ---> how to be a nice person for everybody? One happening reminded me of a fact that i'm not a good and nice person enough to be chosen/ respected as a good and nice one. the peeps around arent wrong. it's probably me who reflected the wrong reflection to them. NAIVE

random thought 4 ---> i'm jobless (LOL) IT'S SO TRUE!

random thought 5 --->This ain’t a movie no No fairy tale conclusion ya’ll It gets more confusing everyday Sometimes it’s heaven sent Then we head back to hell again

Asher Book's Ordinary People

Other random thoughts were coming continuously yet i didnt think i'd like to write no more--- i always love these random ones

Welcome to me :)

Then I say, "Welcome to the blog world" to me...